Okay, the minor I spoke about yesterday has apologised.

Talking to him again this morning, I set the ground rule that if we're going to continue talking and attempt being friends there will be no more talk about sex, at all. He's not happy about it, but that's the way it has to be.

He admitted that he had nothing else to talk about now, so even though the door remains open, it seems he may not want to talk to me again for quite a while.

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I did want to say that the post yesterday was not about just one single person, though...

To clarify on the free art and RPers...

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Look, I've already posted about how I'm not taking commissions, trades, or doing free requests because I owe so much already. I've stopped accepting new ideas and offering free pics for people. I never really announced that I was an artist you could get free stuff from, but because I never said anything otherwise, people have tried to get free stuff from me.

It happens. I'm an artist. I know.

The ones that truly bother me, though, are the ones that don't care about me, don't really know who I am, could care less, but pretend to be friends with me just so they could ask the eventual question... "Will you draw my chatacter?"

Maybe the gift pics confuse people...

With some exceptions, there's often a seperation between fans and friends.

Obviously, not every fan is considered a friend. I'm honored that people like my artwork, but just because I've responded to a comment or watched someone back on DA, doesn't automatically make us friends. We have to talk. I have to get to know you, chat with you, have fun, share art, stories, life's experiences and maybe RP. (Please note MAYBE rp, more on that later.) I have to get to know a bit about you first and get a sense if you really care about me as a real life person or if you're just talking to me because you like my art, think my fursona is cool, and that's it. Again, flattered you like the art, but if you don't care about me, don't try to pretend to be my friend just in hopes of getting free sketches from me.

I'll do free stuff for my friends, usually my closest friends, and on a rare occassion, I might surprise someone with gift art because they've inspired me to do so. Just don't pretend to be my friend if getting free art is you're only goal to knowing me. Save the emotional heartbreak of things going bad and just deal with me on a professional level if you don't care to get to know me. Commission me next time I'm taking commissions. It's so much easier and drama free...

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Now, RPs...

I love RPing. It's like dreaming through text. A lot of fun ideas can be explored through RPs and RPs can sometimes inspire the best artwork from me. But...

I'm not living the same life style I had years ago. Times have changed. Work has changed. My daily schedule and free time has changed dramaticly. As much as I want to RP, I just don't have much free time do do so any more.

Keep in mind, if I'm RPing, no artwork is getting done. I'm not gaming (for those of you wanting to game with me on Steam.) I'm not watching TV. I'm not watching a movie. I'm not even doing laundry or cleaning house. I'm not doing anything else with my free time but RPing. When I RP, I truly focus on it and try to get into whatever's going on. I don't do anything else to the side besides chatting maybe with friends about what's going on in the lives, in the background, out of character.

I like doing other stuff, though. In fact, I like drawing more than RPing. It's a close second, but I'm sorry, Art wins out. Art will win out over RPing especially if OC becomes an option where I can actually draw with another artist.

The point I'm trying to make is that, yes, I do RP. I love to RP and would like to RP with everyone I know, but chances are my free time is so limited now that I really don't have time to RP but with close friends.

I want to make sure that everyone that has sought me out for RPs understand this and that no one in the RP category is put off by yesterday's post. I was angry at you guys the least. Just recently, a few of you got pushy and tried to guilt trip me about it. Again, friends come first. If you pretend to be my friend, just to use me for RPs, I can tell. Believe me. I can tell when you don't care about me and all you want is entertainment. THOSE are the RP guys that upset me, the real pushy ones that want nothing but RP every time we chat.

Please, stop forcing it, and stop asking for it. You'll know when I'm up for RP. I'll jump into character and start interacting with you if I'm in the mood. Just let it happen. Don't Try to schedule it. Don't get mad at me for not having the time to do it either.

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That's all for now. I just wanted to follow up yesterday's post with a more deatiled explanation about why I got so mad.

Please don't respond with, "Was this me?" You'll know. Just take what you can from this and please give me a bit of a break on the art and RPs. I'm trying guys, but I can't be friends with every single person who watches me and reads my journals. You have to at least show you care about me first in RL too before I can even consider you a friend. I'll open up a lot more once I get to know you and you seem sincere.

Please understand, I'm making this post because I care and I want you to know where I'm coming from so there's no hurt feelings. If you're one of the cool people who care, please be patient with me. Everyday I'm trying hard to figure out how I can chat with all of you more.